I succesfully went through the advanced military training and am finishing in two days.

Being out in the sun for hours sweating it and learning all kinds of survival tactics, war tactics, controlling our impulses whenever we got angry sweating it in the sun and having the team leaders talk shit to us makes me think I became way more calm and not giving a shit about a rando's opinion but , I am not really feeling anything too much to be honest.

I expected to get tougher and appreciated whenever I do something exceltional but it seems they treat us all the same regardless, only a few superiors rewarded us verbally at times for being good soldiers.

This feels like foght club if you get what I mean. Though I haven't interacted eith women since I joined because I was in and locked up, I don't know what will be different when I go out in a few days..

Note I am not in the US army and it's much different here, we finish the hard training and then all we do is services until we finish serving. I could say for sure now that waking up early and being clean and always tidy and ready nowadays doesn't make sense to me any more anyway, discipline and stuff. I just do it to avoid punishment.

What do you guys believe? I'd like your opinions expressed here.