TL;DR: To prevent myself from reversing to BP mentality I reread my text messages with girls in my early days once every 3 months, embracing the urge to vomit. Text example below. Prepare a bucket.

Tonight I was doing checkup on my redpill journey. I do this once every 3 months. My checkup routine includes (1) 30 minutes of writing down every RP moments I can remember over last 3 months, and (2) re-read what I wrote from the first year, about 20 minutes. This is the lesson I learn from the first year of unplugging- it is incredibly easy to backtrack and go right back into bluepill world. I notice that there are not many advice about preventing backtracking here. Mostly it's just "keep doing it and you will internalize it." Well that is obvious, but while internalization is the endgame, "keep doing it" is not an operational advice. It's the redpill version of "just be yourself." We need something more concrete. I know I needed a system to prevent my conditioning to take over when I slipped back into bluepill mentality EVEN after getting positive results for a year! Look at the interaction I had with a girl below. It's abhorrent. The text message below was an interaction I had with a girl one year of being RP. I just had a successful internship with a big company and was invited to a convention at corporate HQ. I noticed this girl was staring at me all morning so I approached her while waiting in line at the buffet. Immediate hook. We flirt back and forth all days, whenever we are in the same group. K-close later in the day, tried to pull her back to my room, she agreed, but my roommate was being a dick about it so couldn't do that. Try to pull her into the hotel's pool to fuck, and she still followed! But the pool was closed. Since logistic didn't work out, I took her number instead. Part of fail due to still being naive (didn't notice how eager she was) and unfamiliar with the area- I should have fucked her in the elevator or latenight restaurant's bathrooms like I do now. After taking her number, the girl stalked me and friended me on FB. She sent the first msg on FB. And this is where shit gets weird. For some God-knows-what reason, I texted her as if she was a friend. My guess is that I treated the RP as if it was a PUA tool- to be used only when I am gaming girls. So when the convention was over, and us living far away from one another, i let go of the sexual dynamic and slip right back into bluepill conditioning. I kept these texts to this day to remind me the horror. You can feel the girl's vagina go from Niagara fall to Sahara desert in one second.

She: You came up on the people I may know haha How are you ?

Me: I'm good. In school now, it's a new year I met a senior student over the summer quarter and had a really life changing conversation with him. like he said he didnt like how he partied all around his time here and he was about to leave college with nothing but a bunch of aqquantances and a record of doing stupid shit. It really makes me think about how I'm handling my college year

She: Aw man. You should send that guy to me. lol. Yeah it's my first year of college so I didn't really get all the classes I needed. So I'm just taking GEs. But yeah I know what u mean man. You think you did a lot of stupid shit ?

Me: Like so the summer I lived with my party circle at an apartment and I was doing really well in this econ classes im trying to ace. It went well until 2 days before the final I ate some of their brownie without knowing it was weed in there and I got super fucked up, I tried to study but I blanked out in the test Well on the bright side gotta say the brownie was good...too good I gotta go to next class bye 09/24/2015 2:53PM But yeah, I guess freshman year is a messy year where you try to find your place on campus, but after that gotta get shut together

She: Dam dude. Never trust someone you don't know when they give u something to eat at a party! I was slipped something into my drink once and it made me sick for 4 days /:

Me: And yeah dude I feel u Shit you mean like some roofie shit or something

She: I think so /: That's faced up But that was back in February Fucked up lol

Me: Yeah watch it dude, it's weird and fucked up in college spmetimes, like everyone thinks if they ever get a chance to do something like that and get away they have to do it here in college You start school yet 10/16/2015 3:40PM link to a sexy underwear Yo hername i think you're gonna love that one lol an inside joke

Her: Sooooo want lmao

Everytime I read this I cringed so hard I want to go back in time and strangle to death the younger me. But lesson learned: as you progress, you need to have system to protect your own progress. Like lifting, you can't say I can eat whatever I want now I got a six pack. What I have accomplished mean nothing, and the frame from which I achieve those accomplishments mean everything.