I'm as omega as anyone can be, a 27 year old kissless virgin. The only good thing in my life was that I was very good at my studies in school. And I got admission into a med school at 20. However I could not handle it purely because I was passive and unwilling to take responsibility then ( helicopter parents, no supervision in univ). So I soon emerged a drop out. From there my life has been a downhill journey. Up until now few girls used to give me looks (maybe beta bucks studying medicine, maybe the height) , but after I dropped out I became a total loser. For six years I slept during day and sat before computer. I turned 25, and boom, enter a unicorn. A cute 18 year old, even objectively way out of my league finds a willing ear in me. My inner beta builds a disney story. She gives baits now and then. Enter muslim chad who treats het like shit and abuses her for drinking. She even told me how he was rough in bed and how mistreats her. Beta me perplexed as fuck. I expressed my feelings one day when she was really down. She looked at me like I was dog shit. Depression and anger ensue. I sought online guidance and found TRP. I was 27 by this time. I was in sad state for an year before I found trp.

Post TRP

A 27 year old skinny-obese me with no degree or job living off his younger sister's earnings in a room all alone in a suburb to meet expenses. After taking notes of sidebar and reading them several times, I set out to hit on girls. Almost every attempt failed. I joined the only social club in the area. With improved body language and dress and what not, the girls in club give attention (smiling to even bad jokes, sit close, give a look etc) but I could not completely capitalize on them. I was still a reforming beta inside. It's hard to hide the anger phase vibe. They were strident feminists and got a whiff of my silent indifference to their views. One of them who was most attracted in the beginning almost acquired an infinite scorn for me upon hearing one or two lines that indicated my views. She talked all other girls out of talking to me. And what more, she got me kicked out of the club today that effectively ended my chances in a radius of 20 miles. None of this would have happened if I was an alpha. My progress was still slow and awareness level low. From one who got endless attention as if it was a miracle, I was reduced to a leper who got thrown out. I sat down today and made an honest introspection. I feel like shit because I was treated like leper and thrown out on word of a 18 year old silly girl. But I wish to channel it to a productive and rapid transformation path. I'm only few months into taking pill.

Lessons

  1. Biggest one - nomatter how far the actual city is. Commute daily and join a fuckin gym. It's biggest mistake I made.
  2. Take a eight month crash course in nearby vocational college and get a guaranteed job by next year.
  3. Never talk about TRP. Keep mouth shut. Deflect shit tests with silent pointed stare if I got nothing say back. For four months interactions with women can wait.
  4. Forget about past. That teen who threw me out won't see me again. And in my conscience I know it was me who was wronged so why worry about others? Only person who matters is me.
  5. Read seneca , marcus airelius, Montaigne daily as if they are bible to know ways of the world.
  6. Receive with simplicity whatever life has to offer life is too short to feel regret. Tomorrow is still another chance.
  7. Adding value to my life from now will give self esteem which will set up a reinforcing loop to fuel further progress
  8. 27 years is not the end to lose hope of building oneself from scratch. I can make it the beginning. Schopenhauer once said a man truly sees things and begins life at 27. This could move even further in modern society where there are no male role models.
  9. A man who identifies his value too much with women becomes feminine (purusha and prakriti, chaos and order, logos and eros). Women are vehicles. Once we gain a modicum of value, we can ride on any one. I learned this from samkhya philosophy in hindu system. A woman can only be a pussy. A man can be anything, even a woman.
  10. In the end this will all be dust. So don't give a fuck. Idgaf is the mantra.

PS : Sorry about my English. It's not my mother tongue. Add any lessons to the list from your own life.