Lurker for 5 years here.

I'm back into the dating scene and chatting to a bunch of girls. I'm fat as fuck but I started back into exercise with a personal trainer. I'm trying to do nofap, but I'm so thirsty its not even funny.

The thirst I feel is causing all sorts of craziness in my brain with psycho somatic feelings. I'm so thirsty I feel like separated from reality most times. I just feel disconnected. I give off (what I feel) are terribly creepy vibes, even though I'm 6'4 and girls have told me I'm attractive.

This thirst man, I want to fuck so many girls. And I feel so impatient about it. All this energy and aggression. I really crave the feelings and intimacy, like into my being. This thirst desire is so overwhelming, I really want what I want, I'm sick of waiting.

That being said, I'm monitoring myself as best as I can and texting nonchalantly, sarcastically, and being chill with my girls. I'm also trying to act laid back and cool with people as I work. But I feel like I have this ravenous beast inside of me, and I need outlets. Meditation doesnt help me as much as action does. I need more action.

Anyway, what are your thoughts and feelings? Sage advice? What's up?