My bf is 43, im 23 and I want to leave him. We have an apartment together because he would always complain about how he hated his apartment and living alone. Now im stuck living with someone i dont want to be with. I love him as a human being, i respect him, hes the funniest person ive ever met. I dont want to be with him anymore, i dont wanna date someone whose 60 when im 40, hes messy, we have barely had any intimacy and honestly at this point even if he did try to have sex with me i would refuse him because i dont have a sexual attraction to him anymore. Ive recently got back into the world of being social with my peers and i realize i dont want a romantic relationship. Ive spent a chunk of my life, disassociating and taking drugs and alcohol to continue the eternal daydream, but i dont want that anymore. I want to be a person who loves themselves and has hobbies and friends and who doesnt have to make sure her bf is taken care of. That being said, i have tried numerous ways to help him get his life together so i wouldnt have to help him as much and so he can break his dependance On me which has failed. Our lease is up in august, i tried to break it off with him and just be roommates but he was so upset for days that i was afraid he would hurt himself. He cant just be my friend (even though without sex we've basically just been that for the past year and a half), but thats all i want and idk what to do or how to go about anything, i feel stuck and even if i dont get any advice, i appreciate this sub for letting me vent. Stay strong ladies