Background: I’m 22, divorced, and a single dad with visitation twice weekly.

6’0” 165lbs Lifts 5x5 squat 195 1x5 deadlift 245 5x5 bench 160 5x5 OHP 155 5x5 barbel row 130

I had an ncount of 10 before finding the pill. They were mostly drunken ONS or short term relationships. I found the pill and tried using my new found knowledge for bluepill dreams. I poorly vetted, ltr’d, and knocked up the first girl I had success with post-TRP. I legit think I might be a narcissist bc the pushpull aspect of ltrs came easy. She fucked me damn near every day for over a year, made my meals, and did my laundry. The problem was I think she was BPD and started doing crazy shit like deleting my social media accounts, damaging our furniture, and physically trying to block me from leaving her tantrums on multiple occasions. Leaving her should have been hard but it was easy. That behavior is not conducive to me pursuing my purpose, and I realized that, albeit it took me longer than it should have. Not to mention, I don’t want my son to grow up in that kind of environment. Anyways I digress

I graduated with my undergrad in December, and now I’ve moved back in with my parents. I’m starting grad school in August (MBA) and am working retail in the meantime. I just started PHUL after a year of stronglifts so I’m lifting 4 times a week, doing LISS cardio one day a week. I mediate twice a day, and read non-fiction frequently. Also I’m teaching myself to play piano to productively handle all this free time I’m not used to. I say all this to give you a frame of reference to my situation.

My lawyer advised me to avoid dating until I’m officially divorced which will be in December, hence my monkmode. In the meantime I’d like to maximize my smv as much as possible. In addition to what I’m already doing, how can I do so?

Also staying in a relationship with a BPD women messed with my head. Like sometimes she’d literally tell me to go fuck myself, and then an hour later proceed to beg for anal before scrubbing my toilet. Shit was nuts. What are some ways I can develop an abundance mindset, while not being able to date, after leaving a situation like that?

Obviously advice is highly appreciated. Thanks for reading.