I am 17M and I stopped liking my life, it all started this school year so like 8 months ago.

I noticed it the very first day of school, afer the first few classes I was dead tired and had to lay my head down on the desk. Since then almost every day I have been tired in school and unmotivated... feeling like a goddamn zombie. There is no reason for me to be like this... I dont use drugs or alcohol, I eat somewhat healthy and go to the gym 4x a week for the last 2 months.

I feel like I make people anxious and awkward when I look them in the eyes and I feel anxious about it, happens even with my grandma, mum and dad. I really feel like I cant talk to anyone it feels unnatural like I am faking it.

All I do everyday is think about the past and relive memories.

Since I discovered TRP my eyes were opened about women and I lost 90% interest in them tbh.

I also lost any feelings towards my family, they suddenly feel like strangers to me.

Only time I feel happy is with my best friend, when he leaves the depression hits even stronger.

TLDR: Nothing feels truly enjoyable anymore, feel distant from family and tired all the time.