The red pill has helped my character in so many ways. I've become more confident and understand women's nature a lot more now. I am constantly improving myself, getting better at things and doing the best I can out of life.

Some of the personality traits of the red pill (abundance mindset) and not giving a damn are good to get what you want but I feel like I'm more soft natured. It feels like I have to pretend to have people like me rather than someone liking me for who I really am. Sometimes I feel fake, not so much that I care what others think of me but I feel low in my own character that I have to pretend my way through life.

When people fake who they are eventually their true being comes out after a while and thats when things seem to collapse for me. I get too comfortable with men and women and end up being used and abused or my seen as weak or I'd get preyed upon my vulnerabilities.

If I was ever to find someone I'd want to settle down with I'd want to be myself, not live my entire life faking my Chad-like alpha behaviour and that's the part that I'm scared of in the future. I'm still young yet so I can have an abundance mindset but I don't want to just fuck women all my life. I want my own family, have kids because I wants to pass on my genes and have offsprings. It one of the main reason we live.

Do you guys feel the same way? Where u want someone to genuinely accept you for who you are. I don't even think such an accepting unicorn women exists because of my bad experiences with women.