TRP, I need your help. I have an idea where I need to go, but I need some extra eyes to correct my trajectory.

Here is my back-story. I am a 35M. I feel like I have been a failure all of my adult life. I can’t decide if this post belongs more here or in /r/raisedbynarcissists.

I am the eldest of three boys but have never been seen as good enough by dear old dad. Mom has always deferred to using number two’s accomplishments as a viper’s tongue to point out how I, of higher intelligence, could not do as well in school as he. (Disclosure: we had our IQs tested in elementary school because of perceived family problems.)

A year after high school, I decided to flee my family for a girl who lived two counties over and gave up going to college at the time. Life with her was atrocious, and after five years together, I found out she’d been cheating on me. I fell apart and moved back home. I realize now that was a huge mistake. Hindsight, as they say, is 20/20. After a couple years of wallowing in self pity, I gathered enough desire to do something with my life and re-enrolled in college. After six years of juggling part- & full-time work and school, I graduated two years ago with a degree in Psychology. Having a BA in Psychology is as good as having saran wrap to clean up spilt milk.

I have been toiling at $shittyjob now since graduation and seriously need to do something with my life. Since February, I had been seeing a girl I met at work. We work different shifts, so “don’t shit where you eat” doesn’t apply here. We had only been dating for five months, but because of previous dating snafus, realized that we (thought) were pretty perfect for each other. This weekend, her desire to live the single life overcame her desire to get her Mrs. and she kicked me to the curb.

I am now back at my parents’ house because $shittyjob and still settling in with your girlfriend are financially draining. So TRP, I am asking, what do I do to get my life back on track. I am the epitome of the human spirit, even though beaten, we are still willing to get our asses out of the blood soaked mud and keep moving forward. How do I turn my life around? My parents expect me to work a second job while I live here (which I am willing to do), but there has to be another way.

tl;dr Swallowed the red pill, I am blinded by the light, guide me brethren