I had a client not pay me for some work I did. They paid me over a month late, I don't know why, but it has unsettled me massively. I've sort of figured it out to being not in control.. having to live on their terms and be a fucking bitch, "we'll get around to paying you soon".

Since then I've been drinking and gambling every day, barely keeping it together. I feel on edge constantly, as if the world is out to get me.

My fuckng head hurts constantly.