Hi Everyone,

I’m here to ask about some insight pertaining to some things I’m going through currently as a young man (early 20’s)

Recently had my heart absolutely shattered. I wouldn’t say I was BP to the core, more so blue pill with some red pill behaviours (if that’s a thing) but I definitely simped hard and was rewarded the pain that comes with that.

Feel free to read my post history for specifics but long story short, after 4 or so years my ex left me in the dust. To be frank, I was also ignoring red flags and had forgiven unforgivable actions on the count of my own insecurities and out of plain not noticing them.

But here’s the thing, I can’t seem to have fully moved on, it’s been nearly 7-8 months; and in my spare time I consume red pill content in a variety of forms, not to the extent of going monk though. But now I feel... dejected, hopeless. My purpose previously was the life I wanted to lead with this woman. Now, after this screwed up betrayal I don’t see myself trusting another girl like that ever again, ever letting someone close enough to hurt me, and I doubt “pure” intentions. Everything seems transactional to me now, with the constant threat of monkey branching lurking ever more present in current society. Truth be told, I feel very lonely, I have good friends but I still feel like she left a hole in my life, even after all this time (she moved on to someone else within a week by the way).

What can I do? I know I need to improve my fitness to feel better about myself. But besides that, what’s wrong with me? Why, despite knowing a lot of truths, do I still feel fucking heartbroken?

Maybe I’m being dramatic, but I don’t know, if I’ve left any details out that you guys wanna hear feel free to ask, I’ll be around.

I look forward to everyone’s insight.