Hello Red Pilled friends.

I mostly lurk on here, so this is my first big post. Most of the time others went before me to make the point I was about to make. No need for me to echo it again.

Anyway, here is my situation. Tell me if I'm off or not, because as we all know judgement can get clouded by women we're very fond of.

Background: childhood traumas (almost died a couple of times through food allergy) caused me to be insanely anxious and socially awkward during teens, didn't finish high school, got sort-of red-pilled in early twenties through pua websites, saw a shrink for a couple of years to get my head straight, got into college at twenty-one through entry exams & home study, studied abroad for a semester at twenty-four, finally got laid for the first time at twenty-four, finished college, worked corporate job in the city for years while building own business, saved up money, quit job & sold everything, and currently traveling the world at 29 while still running own business on the road. The only reason I'm here is because I've always worked really hard and never refused to give up.

During the last three years of my life (especially during my travels) I've been getting laid left and right. At this point it's a casual, no-big-deal fun thing for me. I don't even care that much about it anymore. Ironically, ever since I don't care that much anymore, it almost goes automatically. It's really great.

Four years ago I met a girl, and she's really cool. If she were a dude, we'd probably be best friends. She has a Master's degree and a cool career going. On top of that, she's super hot. Amazing body because she's a yoga fanatic, and she's exactly my "type" in terms of looks. She's also a little weird, but exactly the same kind of way I am. Just a perfect match.

She's from America, and I'm from Europe. We've been meeting up in different places all over the world, and we've gone on fantastic adventures together. Every time we meet everything falls into place, and the sex is just out-of-this-world spectacular. When we're not together physically, our relationship is open. It's probably the reason why we've been able to keep it going for this long. We see each other about a month a year.

Now, as of writing, I'm staring down the barrel of 30 and she's one year younger than I am. Even though getting laid is easier than ever for me at this point, and I'd never thought I'd ever say this, it starts to feel empty in a way. It doesn't give me that much more satisfaction than rubbing one out. I can honestly say that fucking ten random chicks isn't as satisfying as fucking her once.

If I'm completely honest with myself, the thing I want the most right now is to settle down with her and start a family. This thought also randomly pops into my head when I'm meditating or working out. It's not something I obsess over, it's something that's buried deep in my mind.

Now that might sound extreme for the amount of actual face-time we've had, but none of the girls I've hooked up with over the years even came close to the mojo we somehow found. And I try to keep an open mind about it. Every time I hook up with some random girl I'm entertaining the idea that she might be the one for the long haul. It's not like I'm hanging out with random retarded bitches, either. Almost every girl has been cool, smart and sexy.

You guys tell me if I'm off here in some way. Should I ignore that feeling and just keep slaying random pussy all over the place? Do I have a probable blind spot here?

Edit: to add to the story, it's been a lifelong goal/dream of mine to move to the US, so that's another advantage. Everything just seems to fall into place. Still, this would be a major, life-changing decision. Hence I'm polling opinions here.