I love girls and I can't imagine my life without them. I like fucking them, I love touching them intimately, cuddling with them, kissing them etc., but yes, I also love rough sex, choking, spanking etc. But I can't seriously even imagine (I'm 31 btw), I would live with one of them in longterm relationship. In the past, before redpill, I've lived with female roomates and it was okay, but nothing spectaluar when I would say: "Oh I need female in my live, they're so great!", no. I never want to have kids because I believe beta men who have no other gifts/talents will reproduce humans as a specie so alpha men can spend their time (ALL of their time!) with shaping the world, making it better place - just like Nikola Tesla or Vincent van Gogh. There is art, science, technology etc. and all of it has to be pushed forward. And I know I have one of those talents (I really do, objectively confirmed by others - but I'll not tell you who I'm or what I've done), but that is not the point. I just want to understand, why do other men who took the redpill and who know about hypergamy, AWALT etc., why do you have or why do you want to have long-term relationships with women or even marriage? I don't want to troll you or trying to mock you, no, I'm really curious what is the deal. It's because you need a companionship, your soulmate, you can't be alone or what is it? And yes I've been in love with a girl before but I just feel there are more important things for me to do than having a nice family and raising kids. And I also know I would be frustrated and unhappy if I would try to combine these two things: life mission (career) alongside with family life.