I really don't know what to do. I feel like I just don't fit in.

My whole life I was an outsider and not many people share my view on the world. I'm quite attractive, intelligent, witty and funny and people really really like me when they meet me for the first few weeks. But as soon as I feel more comfortable and show more of my "true" self people get annoyed by me.

I'm easily bored and can get quite exhausting. I'm welcome in group settings, but I feel like most people avoid one on one situations with me.

I know how to behave to appeal to people, that's why I'm always popular in the beginning, but it feels wrong and like I'm pretending to be someone I'm really not. On the other hand my current life feels lonely and it's only a matter of time before people get fed up with me.

I have friends, I had sex and dates, but I never really had a very close best friend or a loving relationship.