I'm a 20 year old uni student, and although I understand RP and it's truths, I'm still trying to implement them, so my actions are still quite blue pilled.

This is going to sound really, really, really dumb to you RPers on here, but that's why I'm here, cause I'm not as RP as I'd like to be. Basically, I'm currently trying to cut off my oneitis of a few years. We've been texting over months now, but not constant back and forth. It's more, she'll send a message, I'll reply within a few hours, she'll reply within a few weeks. So last time I took half a day, this time I want to wait like 3 days, then the next I just won't reply. I know generally speaking I should just drop her, and stop replying to her and stuff, but I always end up feeling really guilty and then replying, which is why I'm trying to sort of wean myself off. The thing is, even though she's being a bitch, she can also be really cool which makes it harder to cut her off.

Also, with the stuff she's asking me at the moment, I think she's going to ask me to come to her birthday. I want to go because as well as her being there, all my friends all of my friends are gonna be there because we're part of the same social circle. Another thing is, if I don't go, and even though I'm trying to cut her off, do I send her a birthday message? She always does for me, and I mean like a mini essay. I'm just really unsure of what to do, any help and advice would be appreciated.

TLDR; I'm a bluepill beta who's trying to cut off his oneitis of a few years.

Edited for TLDR, and spelling/grammar