Started browsing TRP after a bad situation with a girl last year. Since then, internalized redpill and had success with lots of girls quickly. Am told I am good looking, so it was blue-pill holding me back.

For the last year i've been on a tear, and about 1 month back I met a "unicorn." Attractive as hell, raised in the country, christian values (but she is agnostic as am I), virgin, not even a first kiss before me. As great as she is so far, I met her off tinder. Don't underestimate how big of a red flag this is to me. However, I can justify this as her parents are incredibly strict so she had no way of socializing (homeschooled). When she meets me, she does so without her parents knowing, as they would not let her date (she turns 18 in 6 months, I just turned 18).

In the last month we have done everything, she is incredibly enthusiastic sexually.

So whats the problem?

It's two fold.

One: She fits my ideal girl "specs," and because of that, I am starting to get emotional about her. I don't want to care about her, I don't want to get distracted from my goals.

Two: I am afraid to slip into blue-pill frame. I can feel my frame starting to slip, nothing detrimental yet, but it's definitely there.

The bright side is I only see her about 1 - 2s a week, but we spend a good chunk of the day together on those days.

I seriously thought about breaking up with her only because I'm afraid my frame will shift. I don't want to go back to being blue-pill, and I'm afraid that any quality relationship will do that to me.