I've more or less completely swallowed the pill I guess. But there are still a few points of contention. One of them is the fact that I kind of like slutty women and am turned on by moderately slutty behavior. I like it when a nice girl turns into a wanton little bitch.

I like the idea of a girl taking two guys home and blowing them. I like it when some sorority whore takes a few shots of tequila and starts dancing topless on the table. I'm not bi but I've been one one end of quite a few spitroasts. I like it when a girl takes two loads. I like it when she's an exhibitionist.

When that story broke a while back about that woman who sucked like 20 dicks for a free drink, I wasn't repulsed. I was turned on at first. That is until I saw the video and realized that she looked like a trashy porn star. But I liked the idea and I would have stayed turned on had the girl actually been cute.

When I was plugged in and put that pussy on the pedestal, one of the things I pedestalized what I saw as women who were empowered in their sluttiness. I liked women who "sportfucked." I liked that they embraced the term "slut." It made me want them more.

Being unplugged and gaining a RP perspective has only exacerbated my taste for sluts. Their brokenness and the disdainworthiness (for lack of a better term) actually turns me on more, even though I have no respect for women anymore. The idea that some tattooed, blue-haired little freak is nothing more than a worthless, solipsistic child who's good for nothing more than being made a cum-dumpster gets me turned right the fuck on and makes me want to use such a woman as nothing more than a fuck toy. It's actually improved my game once I got to the f-close.

Understand, there's still a point where a bitch is just going too far. But I'm not exactly sure where that point is. I think for me it's the idea of a woman pushing herself just out of her comfort zone and finding 'gina tingly joy in being a depraved little whore. I think that point varies for each woman. For example the nice Christian girl who's only dated her husband might reach that point the first time they do anal. On the other hand, the girl who fucked the whole football team at an after-game party might not reach that point until she starts exploring hard BDSM or D/s.

I don't imagine this is very red pill. Leftover beta conditioning perhaps? Maybe my dick needs to take the red pill.