• is 20 years old and hot, rich parents
  • a female friend of mine told me she wants to fuck me (she initiated)
  • had sex w/o condom on first date (I am dumb)
  • I know both of her exes, she secretly filmed her ex bf talking to her about his career path. Before we had our first date we met at a party, where she showed me that vid and made fun of him how he is only talking shit and will never amount to nothing
  • lied to me about going out alone. turned out she met her ex which was in the country a few days togehter with a guy from my friend circle.
  • after I nexted her, she posts a pic together with her ex on IG (WTF? how crazy can girls be? yes, the one she filmed and shit talked about, and showed me the vid) (she is not back together with him, hes still out of the country) (Yes I am dumb for checking her IG)
  • is a flight attendand and told me she hooked up with someone on one of her trips some time ago
  • travels to places alone with the money of her parents
  • still in contact with both ex bfs (one which I am a friend of) Yes. I am dumb.
  • Abuses beta orbiters like hell, for free rides and shit
  • only 1-2 close female friends, which are sluts
  • told me she only had fights in her last relationship
  • had anorexia in the past
  • is generally crazy and does drugs
  • reputation for beeing crazy
  • can't get shit done alone. her parents paid for her appartment/secured the deal. she quit her studies. lol.
  • emotional manipulation when I was at my worst point in my life (no sleep etc, I was obviously attached to her so I put up with her shit)
  • when I my depression started she started disrespecting and shit testing me like crazy (ok well not really her fault..)
  • lied to me about only wanting to fuck me, turned out she fucked chad while telling me she only wants to get fucked by me

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Yes. I am dumb for developing oneitis for this girl. But now I know more and a step closer to fully swallowing TRP. Yes I am even dumber for spending so much mental energy still thinking about her after nexting her. At least I made 1 right move and blocked/ignored her everywhere (well I only have whatsapp/snapchat). Next moves are lifting more and fixing my fucking depression.