I have posted before about my failed LTR of 8 years. But over the last week or so it has come to my knowledge that the bitch first cheated on me, on a night out. She then branch swang to this guy, whilst telling me she just wanted a break for a while.

The shit test she gave me was when she had finished her final project at college. I didn't realise it at the time that it was a test.

She said "The guys are going out for drinks tonight to celebrate the end of the project, but I might give it a miss."

I tried to act cool and said, "Well see how you feel."

She came back five minutes later and said she would go then, and that was the first time she cheated.

I can't stop beating myself up over it. Would she have cheated anyway? Would she have just had a go at me for being controlling if I'd said something? Should I really have to tell her after 8 years not to go out drinking, if she's going to jump on another guys dick.

I just can't help but keep thinking if I said "No, don't go." She would be here now.