Im the posterchild for the societal dropout. Raised by a distant father and a severly mentally ill mother, I dropped out of college after developing severe agoraphobia. Im a 22 yr old virgin working a dead end job with few friends. Im the sorta dude you picture shooting up a community college or some shit.

Despite all this I discovered the redpill and actually started making changes. I went to the gym, made gains, started going out more often and moved out of home. I did nofap and finally rediscovered an interest in girls. I was looking better, feeling better and everything looked rosy. The depression was still there but it was bearable. Then I met her. We started out friends but I fell for her, severe oneitis. She lead me on for ages, I never even got laid but Im so fucked up over her shes all I can think about.

Now I realise youd normally just say ghost her or whatever but this is more serious. Ive lost all my gains, 15 pounds down this month, I physically cant eat, cant sleep, have no interest in going outside or talking to people. I didnt show up to work today, I was this close to just embracing NEETdom again, I went through last night all the text convos with girls where I should have fucked them and didnt, I realised how utterly unredeemable I am, no matter what I try I fuck up. Im such an eternal omega.

Really need some proper life advice, im so fucked up right now, this is the second time this has happened and I dont think I can go through the process again.

Posted here cause I didnt just want sympathy, I wanted legit advice (im on antidepressants btw before someone suggests meds)