I will try make this as short as possible, any comments positive or negative is greatly appreciated.

Im 28, have been in a LTR for 3 years now and discovered TRP around 2 years ago, and have been trying to implement , but struggling.

She is hot,is 27 but looks 19, and is a single mother to 2 kids.

When we met 3 years ago, she chased me like hell for a good 6 months, i kept ignoring / being aloof / generally not interested as I had a good rotation of plates and was going back and forth with my ex / mother of my son. I eventually caved in and went to her place, and to cut it short, fell madly in love with her and moved into her place, i visited once and literally just never went home and that was 3 years ago. She was loving, extremely eager to please me in every way, if she pissed me off she made 100% effort to fix things, was respectful, feminine, nurturing, extremely grateful of anything I would do for her or her kids, we had sex every single day, mostly 2/3 times a day, if its time of the month then 1/2 BJ’s a day, I would never have to ask, and if she was ever not in the mood, it was such a rare, rare occasion. My lease on my apartment was up and i was in a bad place financially,so i moved into her house officially.

The move into her house happened at the same time as her starting a job as a trainee carpenter, which is rare for women, and of course, was surrounded by men.

I saw literally and overnight change, she became extremely disrespectful, emotionally abusive,dominant, manipulative, cunning, gas lighting, narcissistic, selfish, extremely controlling, doesn't let me speak, decides what we speak about and when, all affection and sex is initiated by me, talking to me with an air of superiority, tracking my time, after a year of her insane emotional outbursts and just a complete unwillingness to ever take responsibility for her own behaviour or to be held accountable for anything, I couldn't help but notice that she mirrored all the traits of BPD / NPD, however, after watching a lot of MGTOW content, mainly by Sandman, I now believe that in fact, literally all women are like that.

Now 2 years later, looking back I realise whats happened and at which point, but its too late for me to implement TRP into my LTR, any time Im dominant verbally or by other means, she gives me this look of ‘Come on, we both know I'm in charge here’ , she has kicked me out of “her” house at least 10 times over the last 3 years, only for me to be a total blue pill mangina and come knocking on her door drunk as she has me whipped, now the relationship is like this:

I do most of the cooking / cleaning, have completely taken on role of the FATHER to her kids, and I use that word strongly, being a stepfather is completely different from being a father, i see her kids more than i see my own son, my passions disappeared as days turned into how to avoid suffering emotional abuse from her and how to please her the best I could, she turned me into a complete beta boy, I pay half the rent and bills, my weekends are spent with her kids, taking them to their biological dads now he is back around, picking them up, taking them to martial arts classes, my whole life and world has become to serve her, and what do i get in return?

Nothing, I get no respect, I have no authority over the house or the family, if i ever try to take the lead on something she always finds a way to remind who's boss, even if its something small like say i set the dinner table out and put peoples plates where they are to sit, she might change a seat, might serve the drinks, anything she can do to remind me and the kids that she is in charge, if we are walking somewhere, she doesn't walk with me, she makes sure I'm walking with her, she will never follow my lead , if we are walking through a mall, ill look behind me and she's stopped to look at something some 10/20 feet away, not following my lead. If i ever do this, and she finally turns round to see that I stopped to tie my laces, she goes insane at why I'm not following her lead.

We've spoke about this so many times about how she is undermining me and that the kids don't respect me because they see that she doesn't, about how there can not be two heads of one house hold, and that if she wants a guy to serve her and be a passenger then she needs to find someone else, but still nothing changes.

She went from being a single mother with a low SMV , to being surrounded by manginas who are used to working with mainly men, that now get to spend time with her, there are orbiters at my house fixing things , picking my step kids up, one man even brought a fucking playstation to the house for my step son, the same guy gives her a lift to work when he's not even going. I don't think its a coincidence that this happened, along with my apartment (independence and freedom) going, and her having such an immediate change. Another reason for this change may be sex, in bed, it was all about me, i always got what i wanted how i wanted, never cared if she orgasmed or how she liked it, i had good frame, now, its all about her, we have sex maybe once or twice a week now, she gives me a BJ maybe once every 2 weeks now, I feel she is too comfortable because all I've showed her is no matter how much she disrespects me, i keep coming back for more and rewarding her bad behaviour anyway. Ive been wanting to write this for a good year, but i keep forgetting as one good day can easily cloud my mind to what the rest of the days are like.

The reason I stay , is because I truly believe all women are like this eventually and I wont get any better with someone else, I have been trained and conditioned from day one with this woman to be a blue pill mangina and by the time I realised it was too late , if i ever do act alpha, she spots and comments on the fact that its not me, ‘why are you walking like that” etc. For some days and weeks, things are good, and this is usually when we haven't had sex in say 2 weeks, I don't jerk off, so my testosterone is high and my behaviour and mindset change drastically, it also shows her that she cant control me with her vagina. I believe if i get a hold on this there there could be hope for a good LTR, as far as LTR’s go.

Any advice here?