I really can't grasp why I'm unhappy when it comes to girls. It always feels like I'm in a constant battle with my mind that I need to fuck every hot girl I see or else, I've done fucked up. It's got to the point where I'm going out just to pick up, just to practice. I don't feel like I'm having fun anymore. This feels more like a chore that gets more and more complicated. And I've felt this way ever since I was young, like early teens when I was first rejected.