I'm coming up on 90 days since mastering how to cum without sheddin a drop and have some cognitive dissonace brewin.

I've descended into a primal state; rejuvinated, but consumed by the hunt. I approach any woman I want without hesitation and can't fathom otherwise, also broke it off with my LTR one night for no particular reason other than my gut and been poundin plates left n right. I reckon I'm supposed to feel shallow and blinded by hedonism, but I know my heart is in the right place.

I've postulated that releasing the Chi is only for conceiving a child and I should never forgo this newfound power pulsating through my veins to any frivolous urge. My empathy is through the roof and I genuinely enjoy being there for people for nothing in return, something I haven't truly felt since I was a youngin. Could be purely placebo from what I've read on semen retention/nofap threads, but it feels pretty fuckin real for me..

Thing is, I don't wanna be some nutjob (pun intended) caught up in a self fulfilling prophecy.

Any older cats been in my shoes and have any wisdom to empart?

Thank you for your time.