No matter how much progress I make, I feel like as soon as I get close to accepting things as they are I catch a blaring example of AWALT in my day to day life or with a plate or even with family and I immediately sink back into my anger phrase. Angry because everything is true, angry because it's so predictable, angry because I've been lied to my whole life.

When does the Epiphany or even the acceptance phase truly come. When will I ever be able to see things as they are, accept them for what they are and always have been and be able to just deal with them logically and without judgement or emotions?