Hello all! I've been reading TRP for awhile, and my life has changed immensely.

2 days ago, all my friends and I started talking about how I've been borderline obsessive about women for the last 2 months. Ive gotten laid twice by two different one night stands in the last 3 weeks. They were talking about this fact with amazement, wondering what had changed. I haven't told them about TRP because they're all blue pills and I don't want to shake their sense of well being. Instead I told them that I just started pursuing a higher volume of women because I've been really thirsty.

This conversation sparked two things in my head:

-First of all, I realized that while I have gotten laid a few times, the amount of rejection I have experienced has also gone up exponentially. And today specifically I have been feeling really shitty about how many times I've been rejected, even though I have had plenty of awesome interactions with awesome women.

-second, I started feeling shitty about how badly I want to get laid. I can honestly say that I have dealt with my need for female validation. But the whole point of improving myself is to be able to pursue women with higher success. I feel like my desire for sex, while being a main motivator in my self improvement, is actually getting in the way of me having sex.

Any kind words or harsh realities on these topics would be greatly appreciated.