This is an update from my previous post. I tried to "brute force" through my bloated overprotective egoism, didn't go as well as I expected. After deciding to approach another girl little bit later I hesitated and crumbled to my inner voice. Now I'm home procrastinating because I don't have an idea that's good enough for my current assignment (I do online courses), something that I also attribute to my overprotective ego.

How the actual fuck can I get over this shit? I kept building a wall for the past decade (read: blue pill years) to protect my ego from getting bruised from stuff like girls rejecting me and people not inviting me to parties and now this wall isn't protecting me; It's trapping me inside.

I really need your help.