Previously to this I had been going through a dry spell that lasted for a year. For the past few months I been going on plenty of dates, improving my smv etc but never f-closed. The OLD app game for me is fucked, none of these girls think I have enough SMV to fuck me on the first or second date, and they usually ghost me by the 3rd. on IG i have 20k followers so it helps improve my SMV a bit.

Over the past few months I've been talking to this girl over IG, she's from out of town but visited and we smashed 4 hours before her flight out. Then we went to the park and held hands, since I've kinda been obsessed with her for the past 3 months.

Before meeting her I had been fantasizing about her almost every day, jerked off to her pictures maybe 10 times and even on dates with other chicks I just imagined what it would be like if she was there instead.

After we fucked I started getting thoughts about how to start a LTR, thinking things like visiting her for a weekend or something, which is a 1.5 hr flight. In my eyes she's a 10/10, easily the most beautiful girl i've ever met and she's the kind of girl I could see myself marrying. (I'm 30, and I do want kids soon within the next 5-7 years). In terms of quality she's far above any of the girls I match with on apps.

The problem is logistics just don't work out for us. I'm incredibly busy, she's a grad student and most likely we're going to go another 2 months without seeing each other, unless one of us makes a sacrifice and books a flight out to see the other.

I've also been texting her a lot since she left and I can feel like she's backing off a bit, since she probably also realizes that we may not be able to make things work. I know the standard answer is "next that bitch, lift weights and spin plates" but I'm developing massive oneitus for this girl and thoughts about marrying her and starting a family together are entering my head. I'm pretty sure I could wake up next to this girl every day for the rest of my life and not get bored.

Advice on handling this like a man is sorely needed, especially from folks who maybe have been in similar kind of situations.