Hello, boys. My life has been out of control lately. Dad's in the hospital, best friends pretending I don't even exist anymore and I can't function in daily life, brain fog doesn't leave me alone. I'm 19 years old and still live with my grandma (love her tho, she's redpilled and it would break my heart to see her cry) Long story short I feel suicidal, but because I have nothing to lose I will try monk mode. This time commit to it 100%. I'm giving myself a year. I'm fed up with feeling this way.

I'm thinking of focusing on my studies, deleting most of my social media, meditating 2x times daily, reading more books, lose weight, fix my sleep schedule, do some blood tests to figure out if it's not a medical issue, stop watching porn so much cause I've been addicted to it for so many years and I don't feel like it provides any benefit to my life.

So what else can I do to keep myself occupied? I'm also open to any advice you have to give me, or just wish me buena fucking fortuna or something lmao