I am 31. I have fucked around 400 girls. I have high smv and I was very curious to explore all the different ways I could pick a girl up. Lately, more and more I feel the need to have a strong connection that goes deep with a girl. I don't feel the need to be loved but I do feel the desire for something more real and less transient. I have kept resisting it as this conflicts with the life I built, and the life I want to continue to live and am looking for some insight onto whether or not it's some other fear or neediness or weakness that is driving this desire.

Truth is I'd feel like it's a loss for me to settle down right now, based on what my smv could potentially procure me in terms of pussy and the getting of pussy without the loss of freedom, yet I am happiest when I feel that bond. I fuck better, my dick is harder, I can go more rounds, I feel more content after. The thrill of fucking drunk hoes is long gone, the pleasure of temporary hookups fades almost as fast as I go out the door. I want someone I can invest in.