Hello all, I hope this isn't boring and perhaps brings up useful lessons for others. If it's a bad post I can delete it or whatever. I just need some help.

I'm a 23 year old student, I'm a musician, have lifted for about 2.5 years, 6'0", 190 lbs, and am traveling through Europe.

I've come to understand reading this subreddit for the past several months that traveling can be a great way to get into girls' pants, though I understand that's not the actual point of TRP teaching. I'm at a point where I can't get laid no matter what I do, here or back in the states, and it's utterly demoralizing. One may say that it doesn't matter or shouldn't but the fact is any decent sexual encounter would make me feel like a human being again. I'm miserable to the point where it's starting to depress me; I'm losing myself and don't know what to do.

I get probably 3-5 matches on tinder a day, and for the past 3 nights in a row here in Vienna I've gone to the bars, chat up a cute girl, then she always has to go home, even if I ask her to come to my flat. I've always been a touchy feely person and still have that in me but I feel like I'm in game day mode when I'm on tinder dates that last for hours or getting a girl drunk. Tonight I was talking to two French girls and just literally gave up and said I have to go home because I feel like there's no point anymore. I'm so depressed right now, am I really that much of a loser? I consider myself at least somewhat intelligent and fit and funny, but that never seems to matter to get them into bed.

 I would never post anything to Reddit ever but am becoming so miserable about all of this that I'm truly desperate.  Seeing everybody's success on here all the time, especially with non American girls, makes me want to puke thinking how bad I must be as I'm solo traveling through Europe for a month.

Don't get me wrong, I've met great people and socialized and done a lot, but holy fuck would I like any pussy in my life again. Sorry if this seems whiny, that's not the point of it, I just really don't know what to do to move forward. I get decent attention but getting the girl to bed during my dates seems literally impossible at this point. I suspect that the very emotional and conversational part of me might be sabotaging me, but I'm not certain.

Really, my number one question at this very moment is how do I not feel so absolutely shitty and subhuman about all of this? Why does it fucking affect me so much? I can't fucking let it go. A big thing on my mind is that the the other day I had a date with an incredible girl off tinder, an engineer and genuinely nice person. We got drunk, I started putting my hand her back and she suddenly has to get home. Fuck that hurts.

I guess a better title for this might be "I've started free falling and I'm afraid I won't ever stop".