I've been trying to quit porn completely and limit fapping for now because I have hard flaccid and can't get fully hard without porn. It has really started to take a toll on my psyche.

Last time I fapped was last Thursday so I was on day 11 today and was about to head to sleep so I could wake up early tomorrow and hit the gym. For some reason I convinced myself it was a good idea to take a peek at a picture of a girl in a swimsuit to satisfy my visual urges as I honestly don't have any female contact in my life right now at all. I say hello to a few aquaintances in passing but that's about it.

I was really on the right track lately but I was feeling off today for whatever reason even though I ran 2 miles. Could have been because I got less than 8 hours of sleep last night. So one thing led to another and I craved release more than anything in this entire world once I got going. There was no going back at that point so I ended up relapsing.

My hard flaccid was really starting to improve quickly too. I was having some semi morning wood and consistent flaccid hang for the first time in awhile. I could get decently aroused again just thinking about sex. Other good news is I saw some improvement in sensation/pleasure and the hard flaccid afterwards wasn't as severe as normal. Still, I felt my pelvic floor spasm out of my control during release however.

I guess I don't have any question specifically besides what I can do to stop myself from relapsing again. This is the 5th time I've been able to abstain for over a week but I can never make it past 2. I had no trouble quitting alcohol cold turkey for 2 months or quitting tobacco for good so I don't know why I can't do this.

Most of all, I just want some encouragement to keep going because I have no one else to talk to about this. It's taking a huge toll on me mentally so hopefully you can understand and possibly knock some sense into me. I wouldn't mind having an accountability partner either.

Thanks for reading.