Lot of bad things been going on with me in my life and I took it out on my gf, I told her to get out my house and so she packed, cried, left me letters, a dm on twitter, email and stuff (while I was asleep while she was packing) We were together for 4 years and i was her first bf/ first everything. She went home (4 states away) and after a few days I felt bad so I sent flowers and messaged her then she blocked me but she texted my mom thanking her for being nice etc. I feel like shit but i felt I needed to because I went full out hard on her. I know she’ll probably never unblock and calll me again but is there any hope? it’s all that will make me feel a bit better I mean we have 4 years of memories and she always cried saying she can’t imagine me with anyone else