I've been in prison for the last 13 months. Instead of going out or getting on a dating app and finding a real chick to fuck, I took the loser way out and watched porn. What makes it worse is how I went about it. I bought some meth and injected it. Meth isnt my doc and that was my first time shooting it. I did the shot, busted in my pants, and watched porn and fapped for over ten hours. I felt like the biggest fucking loser In the world when it was said and done. I also didn't sleep for a full 48 hours and kept going back to watching porn. I'll spare you anymore gritty details but wtf is wrong with me. Its like I dont have any motivation to go out n get real chicks . any advice ? I know to stop watching porn is the first step but anyone with experience that could give insight would be helpful Thanks . edit=== I got out on Feb 20 and this happened on the 25. I still feel bad and ashamed about this . I thought it would subside but I keep thinking about going on another fapathon.