I need some serious help, i've been battling depression for the past two years and have been in a downward spiral. I'm a 20 year old male who has no idea what the fuck to do with my life. I try and try again but I keep getting hurt, can't hold down a job, can't even muster up the courage to talk to my own family. The past year of school has been a complete waste I had 12 classes but managed to only pass 5. I feel like a complete failure. I went out with a group of friends and the girl I liked yesterday but that ended completely horribly with her not even wanting to give me a hug goodbye. I get that life's not easy but I simply do not know how to live a goodlife. The past few weeks my days consist of lying in bed watching streams and occasionally going to the gym or hanging out with friends, but I feel like this time my depression is starting to get much worse and need to make a change, I need some outside help but i don't know how to do it