Despite reading a lot of red pill material (The Rational Male, subreddits, and NMMNG), I still do blue pill things unconsciously.

There's an HB7 in my 2 of my classes. She recently started talking to me/being nice to me. I foolishly thought she genuinely wanted to be my friend. However, I noticed she only used me just so she can copy off my classwork as I always finish on time/early, and she's failing practically all her classes.

I'm the one she comes to for pencils or paper. If she needs help with something or wants to copy something she'll acts real sweet just to get what she wants. AWALT.

It's only until afterwards that I notice what I'm doing...

She's basically riding the CC, jumping from boyfriend to boyfriend. When there's problems she complains to me. She throws fake IOIs, snowflake behavior, then says I'm "not like other guys".

Another red flag, she's friends with many gay guys.

Wtf is wrong with me? I think she does this because she sees the vulnerability in me (I firmly believe all women can instantly spot that) from low self-esteem and being fat.

I just want this to stop. It's getting ridiculous. I'm practically disgusted with myself. I've tried to stop, but I get an uncontrollable "urge" to try and talk to her and get her approval or attention. Oneitis really bad right now...

When I do it I think that if I say this or do this for her she'll like me and go out with me. Obviously if she did like me she wouldn't have had 6 boyfriends in the past 2 weeks...