I’m tired of my kindness being taken advantage of. I’m tired of being ignored. Tired of people using me when it’s only convenient. I look at movies and shows sometimes and I’m envious of those cold ruthless characters. I wish I could be more heartless. Especially towards women.

Sometimes (like tonight), I think about all the bullshit I went through and I get super angry. I realize how I have to become more cold & stoic. I know this will help in my career as well.