I have a neurological disease, it affects pretty much every muscle in my body. When im rested and calm I have it under control and pretty much no one can notice. Basically its tremor, when muscle fatigue sets in my muscles are almost unusable (think after gym) its hard to eat using my hands etc. Also anxiety amplifies it alot as well, same with temperature change. Despite that im decently strong for my size, used to do 225 bench for reps, feel good about everything except socializing. That shit feels like a real handicap, I never tell anyone about my condition, because I dont want a snpwflake treatment or have a conversation about it

What i mean to ask is how to not let it affect you? Because of that im self conscious during every social interaction unless im drinking. That shit apparently helps my condition. If im self conscious I cant focus, If I cant focus I dont have frame. Therapist? Exposure havent really helped. I want to fucking do good and feel good and improve the quality of my life but I dont know how to go about it.