I feel like the biggest thing holding me back in my self improvement journey is my mindset. My big goal is to be a big freelance film director in my city

I’m still pretty young and in school still so naturally the things I want to happen like getting big clients hasn’t happened yet. Whenever I find an opportunity that slipped out my hands I get a bunch of negative thoughts like “I’ll never make it big or trying to make a living off film is impossible”

Even though I’ve had some crazy progress this year I find myself in this cycle of self doubt due to still not elevating financially or socially or the lifestyle I want.

I feel like this leads me down a spiral of more bad things happening to me but it’s hard not to have personal affirmations when bad things keep happening to you

These thoughts end up trickling down and affecting me financially and in my relationships to the point where I haven’t gotten far with any girl this year but I think that’s more so me just focusing all my time in trying to make it

What do you guys think?

TLDR: How can I start thinking positively and genuinely improve my life when bad things keep happening and my situation not improving