I am 25 and I gave up on seeking relationships right now, a lot of people keep giving the advice of working on yourself first, then looking for partners and all that. I get it, I have to sort my life out first, so I can get that self-esteem and confidence, makes sense.

But I am worried that I won't be able to fit in, I am very inexperienced sexually speaking, I never had sex, just some basic kissing a few times. I know that I can improve how I feel about myself but being so old and still not knowing how to undo a bra on a person or not knowing where to put my dick exactly or many other things that I just don't know anything about. Not to mention social skills that are not the best since I am busy with improving myself.

I don't want to go back to chasing people and getting rejected since it won't fix anything and will make me feel even worse. I just don't know how to gain that experience without showing that I know nothing about relationships, nothing at all. If I become honest with let's say tinder dates or whatever, they will think that I am some freak and will never ever let me gain that experience that I need. If I become dishonest, they will feel it anyway, most of them and still won't let me get closer to them.

I don't know what I can do here. I feel so anxious about this every single day.