Comes off as inspiration since about 30 minutes ago. I was out with some friends, 2 girls 1 dude (1 was a couple) other girl had a bf out and steering through the city getting a drink and playing some cards. I wanted to apply some of the things i learned regardless just to see some effects. There were some, but in the end conversation went back to logical and boring. Of course we cracked some jokes, exaggerated, had a tease here and there. In the end there was a group hug, which my body didnt even feel like participating in. Its such an easy kino, yet I didn't do it, felt out of place. I'm using this as a way of training, normally i see myself as a lot more open, but this time for real as a first in a while i felt like i did not any contact at all, especially physical and I know i should've. I felt tired sure, but i wanted more.

P.S. I am writing this fresh, regardless if its just bullshit, I like to capture moments like these for myself to get thoughts on by normies, experienced rpllers and later on to check it myself.