I would like to ask you, how long it took you to heal from the most fucked up onetis in your life. Mine is taking 1 year now, and I’m sick of it. I read the red pill, understand the thing very well on the intellectual level, but my feelings are still fucking me up. Sharing your story as well is welcome.

My onetis case (just bonus not mandatory to read):

My onetis is a girl I lost the virginity with. I lost it in quite late age. She was 100% my type, tall skinny blonde with big tits. I met her in a bar and after a few meetups, we fucked. We fucked for a month, but I felt something is not right, like she is parasiting on me or something. I felt it especially after fucking her. Because of that, I left her. Being mad after, I first discovered red pill and I found out I did some beta shit while with her. After this, I tried to forget and fucked 2 other girls in mean time.

Then I saw her in a bus few months later. I contacted her that she looks still hot etc. She was always replying instantly, never ignoring me. However, I think she didn’t want to meet.

I broke contact again and hit on her sister later. My onetis soon found out and cockblocked me. She contacted me because of that (asking wtf I’m doing), and we started talking again. I tried to meet her again, no success.

The most retarded part: after all that, while having another SMS conversion, I told her I loved her. She was like ‘that’s ok’ and also told me ‘she doesn’t want to lie me, she doesn’t love me’. I was fkn mad once again and told her to forget about everything and not to tell anyone. She got mad a bit that I request that but whatever.

After this, it is the present. I feel honestly disgusted and mad about everything and don’t know what to do. I think only time will heal so I want to ask how long it takes for other people with similar experience.