I'm turning 30 next week and I'm depressed because I have no friends to celebeate with and I haven't had a girlfriend for years. I'm not overweight but I'm quite short (168), skinnyfat (66kg). Financially I'm doing well but I don't have anyone to enjoy the weekend with or my upcoming birthday. I just simply don't understand what I'm doing wrong. Ok, I don't like to talk much (I'm introverted) and I'm pretty shy but I'm smart, love arts, love to have drinks. I think the problem is that I'm not that energetic and at social evets and I mostly just listen. I also can't laught. I can't remember when I had a good laugh the last time. I enjoy humour I just can't release myself to truly laugh which would be a great validation in social interactions.

I stumbled upon TRP two months ago. Since then I started commuting with bicycle, lost some weight, I drink less, and giving much less validation to people - which I'm not sure if is good. I observe that the less validation I give out the more people are requesting it, it's like a string which is stretching, but until when?? People still don't like to be more around me which is probably because I'm not very entertaining.

It's not very relevant but I divorced 2 years ago from my x wife who we've been together for 5 years. She's been using me to get her uni, I paid for everything during our relationship. Damn how beta I was. Since then I haven't had a proper girlfriend which is a shame. I fucked one girl since then. Still, I miss more a proper social sircle than the pussy. I guess the later comes by itself when the first one is sorted anyway.

What do you guys recommend to put my life and social situation in place for once? I'm waiting for this for 20 years now...