Ok another one for my shrink, but TRP is cheaper.

I have exhibited a pattern for many years and it is one that has caused me to talk myself out of pussy countless times.

I'll preface this by saying my normal humor and way of interacting with friends is one of very dark humor and brutal honesty. Something along the lines of Howard Stern or Bill Burr I guess. I absolutely hate any kind of phoniness. Saying vulgar truths is something of a therapy session between me and my closer friends.

Now, with women I have a dual pronged problem.

First, like a lot of chumps, I get nervous and tongue tied around girls I want to fuck. I feel super awkward and that frustrates me internally.

As a consequence I will often blurt out things that I know will make them uncomfortable, or even offend them. I think subconsciously I am doing this so they will feel awkward too and I won't be "alone" in the feeling.

Now if I add alcohol to the mix (which I often do) I can often cross the line into bitterness and lasting out. This often manifests as me wanting to "tell them about themselves and their true nature" which involves talking about hypergamy, letting Chad do whatever he wants and kidding themselves about their true intentions when sleeping around.

It can also turn dark. Going off about how love and LTR's are a fantasy and everybody gets tired of their partner eventually.

I basically start engaging in verbal diarrhea that is in no way attractive but I find myself resenting the need to be fake and put on an act around them.

Does anybody have a similar habit and have you learned to stop it or turn it into a positive in some way?