I'm in college, studying engineering. I'm very good looking, 6'3, I dress very well, and I have modelled in the past. I'm also very serious, cold and businesslike. That's just my natural state. I'm very confident but not in a male-bravado smiling and laughing kind of way. In class I'm generally the leader of whatever group I'm in and I'm very confident in my intelligence and my abilities. This is great in business situations and work place environments, but I can't really turn it off.

All I can really talk about is my career and technical things. I get along well with some of the other high achieving students in my class but it's very much a business acquaintance kind of thing. I don't even really want to make it more than that because it will distract me from my work if I have to talk to these people regularly.

I don't know if it's a kind of arrogance that comes with being smart but I can't seem to connect with 95% of my peers. I'm just hyper-focused on my career and on going to the gym. I have complete tunnel vision towards it. I see anything else as a distraction.

The ironic thing is, I know a balanced life is the key to being successful. A happier worker is a more efficient worker.

It's weird, the only reason I care about any of this is because it will make me happier, which will make me more efficient and as a result, further my career. I don't care about being happy for the sake of being happy.

Edit : I also have zero interaction with women, I went to an all male school and there's 2 women out of 30 students in my computer engineering class.

Also might be worth including that I had a very domineering father who pushed me very hard. Didn't really let me be a kid.