Girls always look at me and I cannot for whatever reason contort my face into thay cocky douchebag smile. I've been dressing nicer and my face is young and attractive. I'm only in highschool but I want to nip this now, before college. Everytime I make eye contact with one of the girls, I know they are reading me and seeing if its ok to give signs that they are open to be approched. It's like I know they think I'm cute but I can't show them that I think they're cute.

Otherwise I am stoic and relaxed. I can laugh but I dont find women or any of TRP funny especially in real life. In the back of my mind I know these girls are whores at the very mature age of 16 sometimes 15, and that doesn't make me smile.

A part of being Alpha is amused mastery and I cant seem to show that without a cocky, arrogant demeanor . Sometimes I smile to myself in an attempt to practice but it literally turns into a face of pure disgust.

This all goes for when I'm at my job on register, taking orders. I can't make my face friendly to customers without it feeling extremely forced. I can say and do cocky things but my face wont show it becuase I'm genuinely uninterested in anything from these people except my own personal gain and entertainment. (And in that regard a lot of people are useless.)

It's like I smile when no one else is smiling, and I have a straight face when everyone is laughing or crying. I can't really mimic emotions emotions with my face. I need this ability for meaningful social interactions. Girls are missing out on me becuase of this. So for their sake please help. Any advice is welcome.