I'm 16 doing a LDR we see each other and besides distance it's very redpill she's totally submissive but the other day I talked about opening the relationship on my side and she cried and that night I asked some other girl for nudes I didn't get them but I feel terrible I don't want to hurt her. I love her as well as I think I can love this is the longest relationship I've ever had we just passed 6 mo and it's kinda now hitting me that this is unsustainable because i'm very good looking and I can get girls easily and should be fucking often. I know this is tangential so the point is what do I do I feel terrible that I hurt her I ghosted her the other day and she texted a bunch saying what was going on and stuff like that and when I reinitiated she was mad and called me manipulative but when she calmed down later she apologized for that and was happy and fine.

tldr: i hurt her trying to get what I want and feel bad. For background I have a manipulative mother who's verbally abusive, I have depression anxiety and ADHD, and I cheated on my last relationship when I was drunk.