Sometimes I really don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. Yesterday happened something I simply can't forget, so I want to get it off my chest, maybe get some advice from you guys, but mainly for the first reason.

I was walking to college and somewhere along the way, I happened to be walking behind a elementary school girl. Ofcourse she is a kid, I see her as a kid, nothing special about this thing. I didn't pay attention to her. I paid attention to my thoughts. You see, that minute or 2, when I was walking behind her, I felt like a pedophile stalking her. I felt I am this bad guys, stalking her, trying to do her wrong. I knew this thoughts are false and fucked up, but I still felt like it. Ofcourse nothing else happened, but since then I feel heavy in my soul (or chest, w/e you call it).

I had no problems growing up, wasn't molested or anything out of the ordinary. I am an ordinary guy, going my own path in life, just like most of you guys.

So I really don't understand why I had that feeling.

(P.S.: maybe some of you are thinking I'm trying to link my experience to feminism ("all men are rapists/pigs/bad"), but I am really not. Yes, I thought of it as a possibility of causing my thoughts, but am not intentionally trying to do it.)