Long time lurker of TRP and askTRP. So much so that TRP has drastically improved the quality of my life the past four years since college. As such, I credit so much of TRP's theory on my ability to successfully spin 11 plates; however, I have fallen from grace and I'm afraid the situation is rather dire.

My father fell ill at the beginning of December (I know, there's never an excuse) and as a result I lost frame for the very first time. The flood of emotions I was feeling made me behave like a Beta and unfortunately, one my plates witnessed this behavior. She left the very next day.

Since then I have developed a severe case of oneitis. Although never having contracted this mental disease before, I know its severe because I can not stop myself from unblocking her from Instagram and checking in, texting her and driving by her house so I could get the tingles again (shudder). This has been made worse since discovering she is now with another Chad. To top it all off, this disease has ruined my mood around my current plates and has prevented me from going out and getting new ones. Everything I have tried has only been of temporary relief. I know I must cut off all means of contact from her, but I just cant seem to fine the will power to not try and speak to her. Its like an itch that wont go away.

She wasn't even my favorite plate and at the time I did not think I had feelings for her. But she is the first one to have left. I need an extreme solution to this; I am talking shock therapy. I reek in desperation. Please advise and shit on me if need be.