I have friends I speak about business with

I have friends I speak about gym with

I have friends I speak about football with

I have friends I drink and take cocaine with

No one ever really instigates to hang out with me. For the record I don’t take drugs and haven’t for a while but I still know people from that world.

Ok my point is I want friends who enjoy spending time with me and who initiate contact.

I’m mid twenties and I’ve spent a lot of my life never socialising in the week. My week day routine would be:

Work, gym, sunbeds, eat, food prep, chill for an hour and bed

I’m out of shape now and my tan has faded i have fuck all to show for all that time in the gym besides photos I CANT use because I’ve gained 40lbs due to long term injury. If I’m grinding in the week it’s going into side business and not just gym I need return of investment.

I’m thinking of taking one evening a week off to socialise. Plates don’t count.

I’ve been through a lot these last few years and although I can speak to anyone I don’t have people lining up to be my friends. I think these reasons are because:

I have no value I’m opinionated I’m conscious of my health I speak about mental health I speak about my injuries I’m political I get deep I’m conservative I’m so far down the rabbit hole on red pills

I’m working on this and banning myself from these subjects. Although I’d like to debate and find out the truth and free speech corrects me where I’m wrong there’s literally no fucking point. Going well so far my conversations are improving. I can talk to anyone I’m a high performing salesman but my mind was plagued for a while and it ran its toll.

Because I’m so focused on me I don’t have any friends then come the weekend only low value people want to chill with me. I’m low value too now apparently.

How do you guys maintain relationships with friends? Do you socialise in the week?

I’ve also told a few people round me to tell me if I get negative, political, speak about injuries/health etc. They’ll never see me as alpha but idgaf I’m just trying to regulate myself and grow. These people won’t be around me forever

Being on my own has red pilled me to where my time should really go but I’d like some friends please