First of all: I love you guys. It is impressive how everything changes once you adapt some of the concepts discussed here. I am far from being redpill, but at the same time I am far away from being as bluepill as I was before.

The last 6 months I had sex with more girls than the 24 years before that combined. What astonishes me: I currently have a 100% closing rate on the first date / first meetup. I am not nervous around women anymore and I adopted the "I am the price mentality" - it is going great. I currently have 3 active plates which I meet once per week or every second week and have a dozen warm leads, when I want to have additional dates.

Here is the thing: I guess I was very lucky till now. 100% closing rate on the first date and I ended 100% of (plate) relationships. Except one. Plate just went cold, without me knowing why.

And not knowing what went wrong bothers me. It is not about the person that did reject me, it is about the rejection itself. I keep asking myself what I did wrong.

The thing is: It does not matter and I am pretty sure I did not do anything wrong. She was bipolar, so that is explanation enough.

But still: I can't get it out of my head. Is anyone dealing with this? What is the optimal route to become more resilient to rejection? Get rejected more? I do not know why rejection itself bothers me so much.

TLDR: Getting rejected, without knowing why, bothers me very much, which is completely nonsense. Why is that? How can I deal with it, what is the best way to fight it?